Growing up I was never more aware that I was different until the holiday season came around. Think about when you are young and in school the only thing you want is to fit in. I never did especially during this time. While for most people this is the most wonderful time of the year for a whole lot of other people it is not. It is a reminder of what they do not have.
They could be missing, money, experiences, time, and more importantly people. Grief around the holidays soars. Even f it has been well managed the holidays are very triggering for people. Add in mental health issues, divorce, family dysfunction it may actually be the worst time of the year for some people. Some people are missing their routines. Being able to flow in the family the have created with the norms they have grown accustomed to. There is also ton of pressure that comes with the holidays that is not always talked about.
There is pressure to eat the food no matter your food preferences or if you are dieting. There is pressure to have a date, a baby, some new career announcement or whatever the next perceived step in this season of life is for you. Then you are expected to be “on.” To smile even if you are not happy. To just get through because God forbid you ruin the holiday by speaking your truth, or saying you are not feeling cheerful. I am in no way saying show up with turkey and a grudge but it can be hard to consistently feel silenced during this time.
If you are one of the people who are not quite as happy this time of year for whatever reason here are some things you can do when the holidays hurt.
Practice Self-Care. Give yourself what you need. The best thing to do when you're not feeling ok is to be deliberate about taking care of yourself. Instead of bathing in a bath of sorrow and despair, uplift yourself with a soothing candle-lit, naturally fragranced warm bath and a nice drink. Turn on your favorite songs, read new books, find new recipes if you enjoy cooking and baking, learn new hobbies, and simply be present with yourself. Caring for yourself in the holiday season when you're not feeling ok is very critical. Within this time, you will garner strength and build a strong relationship with the self, which is essential for both seasons of feeling ok and not feeling ok.
Have an exit plan. Check in with yourself and when it is time to go, leave. Have a pre made excuse- dinner with other people, plans for holiday parties at work, a date, whatever you need. Although I prefer a more direct approach of it is just time for me to leave I understand not everyone is as comfortable saying that.
Take a support person. Sometimes even with family you grew up with as an adult you can feel like a stranger in the room. When at all possible take someone with you. If not have a friend on standby that you can text. It can be difficult because they may be with family as well bit knowing you have someone who is willing to give you a moment is helpful.
Make Alone Time Priority. When we are not feeling ok, we tend to push it under the rug and never evaluate the reason especially during the holiday. It is ok to go in a room alone or even show up late so that you can take the necessary time to for yourself. Feel your feelings and then allow them to pass. The feelings will not last forever and forcing yourself to feel a different way only makes them linger longer.
Practice gratitude. I know to can be easy to focus on what is wrong and what is missing but there things t be grateful for all around you. Look for them. Outline all the positive things in your life instead of only dwelling on the negative. Start writing a list of all the items in your life that you appreciate and love. Read this list during the moments you don't feel ok.
Dress up! Our appearance is often directly related to our internal emotional state. Don’t just sit and allow the emotions to flood you. I can’t remember who but someone said When you feel your worst look your best. I LIVE by this! It always acts as a mood booster to look good even f my insides do not match quite yet.
Gift yourself. Sometimes waiting for a gift might make you feel worse, especially if one doesn't come and if it's not quite as valuable as the one you have given. It's essential that the most thoughtful gifts you will receive come specially wrapped from you, this will ensure that you are always satisfied and happy with what you received.
It's quite acceptable not to feel ok during the festive holiday season. However, by being gentle with yourself, not dismissing your feelings, and spending time with people you can trust, you will be able to get through and maybe even have some fun.